Television

 My parents always told me that TV was only a luxury. So it had to be used responsibly. But as far as I can recollect, we always had a TV at home. So it was a necessity to me. I watched a zillion cartoons, music shows, serials and award ceremonies on TV.

But these were the least interesting shows on TV. Watching sports (Tennis, cricket, F1 and NBA), daily news  and movies were my favorites. The best memories I have of my engineering days, was watching  HBO, TNT and Star Movies at odd hours of the day/night.  I have been glued to the TV during F1 races and NBA games, and prayed for my favorites to win while watching tennis and cricket. I kept up with the world with the million news channels floating around. I watched TV almost all the time, even while studying for semester exams. My happy days with the Idiot Box came to an end when I relocated to USA to do my MS.

There was no TV when I lived with my roommates. And I hated the idea of streaming and buffering videos. I hated reading anything on the computer. So never bothered to read the news or cared about what happened around me and away from me. The movies I watched were either at the theater or a borrowed DVD from the library.

But I am lazy to research and find movies to watch. If it is on TV, there is no choice. But if I have to choose, I need patience to look for one. So there ended my era of entertainment and current affairs. I got to see TV rarely at a relatives place or when I traveled back home.

Every time I went back home, I was surprised to notice that the serial I watched back then was still on TV, and boring at this point. And there were a million new channels,shows and soaps on them. So I was confused on what to watch. Plus, no one appreciated it when I ignored them watched TV instead. Set Top Box was made compulsory in Chennai. There were 2 remotes now, none of which I knew how to operate. They had lots of buttons on them. And our old remote was not only used to switch on and off the TV. My grand mom taught me how to use the two remotes efficiently. But, by the time I learn it, it was already time to head back.

I surely lost interest in TV. But V on the other hand, was excited about getting married, because he could buy a TV and a sofa. I was startled. We did get married, and bought the TV and sofa he so dearly wanted. I was reluctant to use it the first 2 weeks, because of the strange remote here. Typing to search for anything on netflix or Amazon was a pain. But soon, I had an App to operate the TV on my ipad. And since then, I have watched TinTin, Johney Quest, some random movies, some cartoon movies, TV series and documentaries on it.  V has willow TV account. He watches cricket. But he watches it on his laptop. I am not that keen.

Recently, V bought a one time payment Antenna that receives some free digital channels. And for the first time in a long long time, I watched French Open Finals, NBA finals and some local news channels and I am soooo thrilled.

I hopelessly fell in love with TV all over again!

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Life has been the the most unexpected thing that ever happened to me!
I can never predict what I can I do or what can become of me. I have always been a people person. I love having people around me. I don't have to be the center of attraction. But I always love it when people get together her and invite me too. I love to talk and to listen to others.

But strangely, I can only keep up with people around me. A phone or email or Facebook conversation is next to impossible for me to maintain. Might be right or wrong, but, I prefer keeping up with people right next to me, to those farther away. In the recent past it has gotten worse. I don't stay in touch with people near me too. 

I am happy sitting at home. Doing my own cooking, cleaning,  TV watching, experimenting with varied stuff, and all that. Suddenly, my world is revolving around only me. And that is quite relaxing and calming. Feel like I have much less responsibilities. For the first time, I don't have the urge to travel around, make new friends, stay up to date with everyone's life.

I am happy with mine. I am engrossed in my own thoughts, actions or in-actions.
Strange how the mind seems to like this isolation. But I so love the feeling, that I am not willing to let go of it. The more I feel, I should keep up, the more I want to stay away.

Curious feelings and emotions. But I am willing to stand by me and see how this turns out. I want to thread this unexplored part of me. I know this isn't it. I will change sooner or later. Maybe people will understand, or maybe not. But, I am convinced that I need to try this. I have never been away from people. This is my one chance to give myself the time...