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Sunday, July 31, 2011

Weightloss, comparison and such things...............

I believe that each of us is made a certain unique way,  so that we stay unique and love ourselves for this uniqueness. We grow as a person, by competing against ourselves.  I prefer not to compare people with one another, however startling the differences may be. Because, that is how it is meant to be. Different!!  I refrain from doing the usual comparisons, based on sex, race and creed.. I feel it is very unjust to do so. Each of us so different from the other person that it feels immature to compare two people.

In every action on mine, I try to avoid comparing myself with another and avoid people who compare themselves with me. Comparison, feels like an extra baggage that we carry. But I have never been able to appreciate the joy of self-accessing, until recently.

It was a cathartic experience. I had decided to shed those extra pounds that I had gained after stepping into the US almost 6 years ago. And this required a lot of determination and self-control. I had to train my mind, to believe that it was not a Himalayan task after all. And I had to keep track of my food habits and watch what I was eating. I took personal training at work with a friend of mine. We found out very early that what ever we did, it wasn't a competition between us.

We had to focus only on out doing ourselves. And that was the toughest of all competitions. To neglect the urge to be lazy and to over indulge.  I understand,  why people say, "The first and best victory is to conquer self." .

Here there is no scope for comparison with another. It is so obvious that our body constitution and metabolism are so different. It is quite futile to make that comparison. Being better than the other person, did not guarantee more weight loss. All along there was only one goal. Beat yourself every single day.

The path is extremely painful. It is easy to lose the focus and indulge in junk food. But the feeling on seeing the difference,  in the weighing scale as well as in the cloths fit, is just too pleasing. And that is a very personal feeling. Just yourself. And that joy is unparalleled. No one can share this feeling with you.

I had decided to lose weight to prove some thing (can't remember what) to my fiance. But at this point, I appreciate the change more than he does. Thanks to him for challenging me. I still have some way to go before I reach my goal. But, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Because I know it is up to me and no one else.